Tuesday, June 12, 2012

My Thoughts on Eden's World


Have you seen the show Eden’s World? It is about 6 year old Eden Wood who used to be a beauty pageant superstar. It is on Logo and I started watching it On Demand. Let me tell you that it is a horrible train wreck. All of the pageant shows are train wrecks and I don’t think that dressing your child up to look like a grown up and skimpy outfits is an ok thing to do. It is totally wrong in my opinion and it makes little girls focus on outer fake beauty. All of the pageant pictures look like the little girls aren’t even real, like someone made them in to a plastic fake doll. I know that a lot of parents live through their child for the adults dreams of wishing they were beauty queens. 

Eden’s World is a horrible show. Sure I think she is cute but overly too cute. She seems that she is overacting and over the top.  I don’t want to sound like I am bad mouthing a six year old. My problem with the show has nothing to do with Eden herself.  I am glad that she is so confident, even though it might be a little too confident. Things I saw in the episodes of Eden’s World were not appropriate.  I know that it is not a kid’s show but there are kids present when a lot of the drama happens.  I think the stylist Fran is an evil and rude woman, she yells at people, gets in confrontations with other adults in front of young children, and her language is horrible. I would be so upset if my child heard the things she was saying as a parent.  Her Manager is the same way, she also is very short tempered, rude, angry and also uses foul language in the presence of Eden and other children. I also noticed that her manager is not being professional. 

My question is Mickie why subject your child to that? Why would you do a show like this? Why would you want your adorable 6 year olds name and brand attached to rude and nasty tempered people? I understand Eden really wants to become a star, but the E Team’s behavior is going to harm her more than it helps her.  People will quickly learn about the E Team’s temper and why would someone want to do business with Eden if her team treats others like dirt? I think that you should have probably passed on the show because her talent is what should get her out there, not some ridiculous show that makes you, your daughter and her dreams look like some big joke.

Monday, June 11, 2012

A Hard Parenting Moment


I recently wrote a post about letting people go.  Well, several nights ago Noah and I were talking, it was late, he had a cold and he started talking about my dad.  It broke my heart, without going in to personal details, basically he was saying things like I wish I could meet Grandpa. He is almost six and has never met my dad. He lives in England with his new wife and it just is far away. I haven’t seen my dad since before I found out I was pregnant with Noah.  Noah kept saying things like where is Grandpa? How far is England? Why haven’t I met him?  I didn’t have the heart to say anything. He went on to make a plan to go see him. He calculated every detail of the trip out to me.  I just went a long with it.  I felt the tears falling down my face because it made my heart hurt so badly.  We have never had the best relationship and again without getting in to all the personal details he has hurt me many times in my life, more than I can count. I had known this for a long time and it is who he is, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.  I was really hesitant to let him back in my life and now Noah’s life back in 2007.  It is really hard because he’s my dad. My five year old doesn’t know, it is sad that he hasn’t met him.  I already have seen him disappoint Noah and continue to disappoint me. I used to wonder if I did something wrong, if I wasn’t good enough growing up? I wondered if it was my fault. 

So, what do I say? I mean I am definitely not going to say the truth to my five year old. I don’t want him to know, if that makes sense. I guess I will just have to go along with it for now and not make any promises. It is not like he has made any effort to see us. He invited us out there when Noah was two.  That’s a long way from home and I would be worried something would happen and we would be on the streets in England to fend for ourselves.  He has never offered to come here once. When he was living in the states, he never offered to see us.  We actually moved to be closer to him and he took off to England.  He has never heard Noah’s voice other than on videos. He doesn’t call, Skype or anything. Noah has seen two pictures of him.  It makes me so sad, because who could want to not meet my sweet little boy. He is amazing and so smart.  It has really turned in to a very stressful and hurtful thing for me so I decided to just let him go. Let him have his life in England and all that and hope he is happy, but I can’t let him hurt us anymore. My heart can’t take it, I don’t want Noah’s heart to hurt or ever feel unloved  by him like I did for almost my entire life.  It just really stinks because Noah is asking about Grandpa all the time now and I know he is genuinely just a kid wanting to see someone he loves.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Investing in Noah's Future


Noah is starting kindergarten in the fall, where has all the time gone?  It seems like just yesterday he was a baby.  Now that I have registered him for school, and soon will be buying him school supplies and paying book rental and sending him on the bus, it has me thinking about the future. I have always thought about the future but I really need to start some kind of college fund for him so when he graduates high school, he can go to college.  I am not going to be a parent that relies on a scholarship for my son. I have faith that he is smart enough to get one but you never know.  I know that he is very advanced for his age but I need to be proactive about this.  I need to sit down and look in to investing my money in to something that can provide for Noah’s future if he goes to college or not.  I want to check out purchasing some walking liberty half dollars.  I was always told that gold and silver were both a good investment. 

My dad gave me a couple pieces of silver when I was in Jr. High and I still have them both.  I couldn’t tell you where they are, but I still have them tucked away somewhere.  I thought it was really cool that he gave them to me.  I could have sold them at a pawn shop or something, but I kept them for a rainy day. I think I might pass them down to Noah when he gets older.  You know I am big on heirlooms and by the time he is an adult, they will be over 25 years old. I know some of you might be thinking he’s only 5 now and I have time, the last 5 years has flown by so I am assuming the faster I get on the ball I am able to help him go to the college of his dreams.  He wants to be so many different things, it changes all the time so who knows what he will do with his life.  I just need to check out a company like Independent Living Bullion to start investing in Noah’s college fund while he is still young.  The longer you have the more likely you are to be able to do something like this.  I have big dreams and hopes for Noah to be whatever he wants and will help him achieve his goals in life.

Do you invest in anything? Do you have college funds for your children?